Reflection
Today marks the completion of my 63rd lap around the sun while living through 22,995 planet earth rotations.
For several days leading up to my annual womb emancipation day, the opening quote has been oscillating in my brain.
Life is not the way it’s supposed to be. It’s the way it is. What you do with ‘the way it is’ makes all the difference.
A week after my twenty-seventh birthday our dear son Jordan was born. For the first hour or two of Jordy’s life, all systems seemed to be OK. Then suddenly everything went south and he became deathly ill.
As most of you know, Jordan survived his illness but was left to live a life as a person with disabilities reliant on the care of others.
During the first eighteen months of Jordan’s life, I was in a deep state of “supposed to be” despair. Thoughts like, “This isn’t how it’s supposed to be, ” or “I was supposed to be the Dad of two healthy boys,” permeated throughout the tissue in my cranium.
To numb the pain associated with my severe case of “supposed to be’s” I began ingesting large amounts of opioids.
In essence, I wasn’t able to handle reality so I created my own.
Luckily, we all survived that horribly dark period in our lives and personally I learned so much from it but none more than to live and make the most of my life one day at a time with no expectations, projections, or “supposed to be’s.”
God didn’t put us on this earth to take our laps around the sun in a “supposed to be state.”
He’s equipped us to make the most of the way it is.
“Supposed to be,” is one of the many tapes planted by the devil in our brains.
Upon birth, God hands us an adventure that unfolds one day at a time.
An adventure where He encourages us to use Him as our guide.
An adventure where He will assist us in battling off the “supposed to be’s.”
An adventure where He will help us embrace reality and make the absolute most out of what is.
I have to be honest; I didn’t think I was supposed to be so achy while taking these latter-year laps. 🙂
Romans 8:28, “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”
P.E.A.C.E.
Jay@EagleLaunch.com
Happiest of birthday’s to you, Jay!
Enjoy YOUR day.